June 2015 Fertility & TTC Update

It’s been quite a while since I’ve done an fertility update…or any sort of post for that matter. I’ll be honest- since Tyler got home two months ago, I have really had no desire to blog. With working 40+ hours a week, my free time has been devoted to normal day-to-day activities and spending time with him. It’s been nice to kinda just live in the moment, and quite frankly, I really don’t have much to say at this point in my life, haha. Sure, I could document our meals and work outs and recap our days/dates, but I don’t see that happening anytime soon ;) For now, I’m just going to give an update on what’s been going on with this whole trying for a baby thing.

First of all, I started taking 5mg of Femara (Letrozole) late April (my cycle actually started the day before Tyler got home, haha. Talk about sucky timing, but it enabled us to start fertility meds quite quickly! I had VERY little side effects compared to Clomid. This time, I only experienced extreme fatique and headaches while on it from cycle days 5-9. I also had a lot of bloating around ovulation and while that was uncomfortable, it wasn’t unbearable by any means. I used OPKs and got a positive around cycle day 15….AND my Day 21 labs showed that my progesterone was 29- the highest it’s EVER been!!!! I seriously listened to my doctor’s voice mail on repeat and cried a little, haha. Unfortunately, we didn’t conceive.

This past cycle we did the same protocol with Femara. My OPKs were positive on cycle day 15 and my Day 21 labs were even better- 37!!!!! Unfortunately, it didn’t work again, but I’m happy with how my body has responded with this medicine.

We got some unfortunate news a couple of weeks ago regarding Tyler’s sperm analysis results. It showed a significant decrease in sperm count (10 million/ml), mobility (40%) and shape (8%). I had an appointment with our doctor a few days ago, and she put in a referral for Tyler to see a Urologist and requested for another analysis to be done. We have a follow up appointment in 3 weeks to go over what the Urologist says after an examination and to compare the two test results. However, she said if the second test did not show an increase, she would higher recommend in-vitro fertilization (IVF). This came as a huge surprise to be as I was adamant that she was going to say IUI. I will make a post about the differences between IVF and IUI within a military setting (somewhat different that a civilian setting) and the pro’s and cons of each, but right now, we are just trying to wrap our minds around this new information. IVF is quite expensive, but it is much more successful that IUI. It is also much more invasive and harder on the woman’s body that IUI, but then again, more successful.

We are researching IVF and talking about our options in case this is the route we decide to go. The military hospitals do IVF in cycles- there is one currently going on now and the next cycle should be in September/October….so our doctor said we could potentially get things going quite quickly. We will see what we find out over the next few weeks. In the meantime, I will not be doing another round of Femara this cycle (doc said it would be pointless) so it’ll be interesting to see if my body ovulates on it’s own. I’ll continue to take Pregnitude, a prenatal vitamin, and will be taking Vitex as well. I ordered TJ Fertilaid and Motility boost off Amazon (doctor suggested this although I had already bought it prior to our appointment), so we shall see if that helps.

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We are celebrating our 3rd wedding anniversary next weekend, and I can’t wait! Though things may not have been picture perfect compared to some marriages with this whole trying to conceive thing and the deployment, I wouldn’t trade it for the world.

Have a great weekend :)

How I’m Naturally Trying to Regulate My Cycles & Boost Ovulation

When we got news that Tyler was deploying, we agreed that I would keep monitoring my progesterone levels each month, but I would not use ovulation tests and partake in temping. It became too stressful to constantly use OPKs, only to get a negative pregnancy test month after month. There was no point in me keeping track of this stuff on my own.

It was honestly a relief to just be free for a while as those little strips would sometimes have an impact on my mindset or mood. However, I’ve researched the crap out of conceiving via the “natural route” (herbal remedies, acupuncture, etc.) and Western medicine. There is no discrimination on our end- we are for them both. However, TJ and I both agreed that trying to prepare my body for conception a few months before he got home was a proactive measure. Out of the nearly 10 months Tyler was gone, there were only two months where my progesterone was above 5 (September was around 6 and October was around 7). Every other month my body just simply wasn’t ovulating, and it’s impossible to conceive without ovulation. Side note: some women do not ovulate every single cycle- that’s not abnormal. It becomes abnormal when it happens repeatedly.

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Fertilaid, 81mg of baby aspirin, Pregnitude, folic acid, Vitex, and fertility tea. I don’t use these all at the same time!

I continued taking a prenatal vitamin after Tyler left, but I switched to every other day with a woman’s multivitamin in between. I didn’t want to waste the multivitamins, so that was the main force behind that decision, haha. The prenatal vitamins I use are from my OBGYN and I pick them up from the pharmacy on post. That and the folic acid tablet, which I take when we are activity TTC, are both free with Tricare!

I also heard about Pregnitude. It’s a little pricey, but we’re all for investing money in trying to have a baby. I’ll be honest- I didn’t take two packets a day as the directions showed- I only did one. However, the months I did this, my progesterone was higher (see above)! I don’t know if it was the Pregnitude or just a coincidence, but I stopped taking it after October and my progesterone was never above 2 after that. Perhaps I should’ve kept on taking the supplement, but I didn’t see the point as Tyler would still be gone for many months so it felt like a waste of money.

After reading numerous articles about it online, ordered Vitex via Amazon a few months ago. You can read about it HERE. One of the benefits of it is that it is supposed to help naturally regulate your cycle which is what I need. The capsules are like freaking horse pills and look like dirt is inside of it. I got one caught in my thought and it tasted like I just ate a block of woodūüėź¬† Aside from that, my cycle from March-April was 33 days long! Keep in mind that I took Vitex and Pregnitude. My progesterone on CD 21 was still less than 2 though, so while it shortened my cycle, I didn’t ovulate which is our ultimate goal. However, even¬†if/when¬†I ovulate, who knows if the egg quality will be good. A RE would be able to do tests and relay this information to us.

Fertilaid is another supplement that is supposed to help balance out female hormones which helps aid in conception. I only took this a few times so I can’t give my opinion about it yet. I also ordered Fertilaid for Men for Tyler. Some men might get all butt hurt about taking a supplement, but he was all for it (as long as it was all natural- can’t take your chances of pissing hot while in the military unless you’re a dummy). He stopped taking it once I “thought” I may have ovulated as this shit isn’t cheap. I say thought because I don’t trust OPK’s 100% based on past cycles with getting positive tests, yet NOT ovulating based on my progesterone results or getting good readings but not getting knocked up. Then there was that month when I got like 10 straight days of positive tests, haha. ;) Anyways, Tyler will get his seman analysis done early cycle. My doctor told us to hold off and enjoy ourselves this first month. His last analysis about a year and a half ago came back normal, but they like to test every 12 months when TTC (although we weren’t active much of this time) and after a deployment as you are pumped with various vaccinations.

Moontime, the organic fertility tea, is actually super good! It has a slight minty taste to it, and I’ve enjoyed it in the morning and evening. I’ve also been sipping on hot Green tea and adding the Pregnitude to it.

As I mentioned before, we are trying medicated cycles now (first round of Femara at 5mg…but I’m pretty sure this cycle was another bust). However, I hope the supplements have been helping my body prepare for conception in the near future. I had a vaginal ultrasound done last month on like CD 28 and the lady said my lining was thin and I should expect a period in about two weeks…but my period started 3 days later. So yeah. I’m wanting to thicken my uterine lining as that plays a huge role in implantation. I honestly don’t think we will even try Clomid again as one of the side effects is thinning of the lining. I’ll have freaking nothing left, haha!

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Needed a selfie to break up the text ;)

 

Alright, I’m off to watch a movie with Tyler and our boys. Hope you all have a great week!

*Have you or someone you know ever tried natural fertility supplements?

*Do you know of anything else that I didn’t mention?

 

 

 

Military Spouse Appreciation Day

Today is Friday and I’m off- woo! I’m looking forward to spending the day with Tyler. I’m in charge of planning what we’re doing this morning and he’s in charge of the afternoon, so we shall see how this turns out :) I have to admit- I got a bit nervous about him coming home and thinking about if things changed between us, if he changed, etc. The whole period of being reunited and getting settled back into everyday life is called reintegration, and I read blogs and articles about how it can be a struggle. I may write more about this at a later time, but things have actually been the same around here, if not better :)

Anyways, today I’m linking up with Jen in¬†honor or Military Spouse Appreciation Day (yes, this is a real thing, haha). I don’t even remember how I stumbled upon Jen’s blog (http://kyleandjensmith.blogspot.com/), but she writes about everyday life, running, and everything in between. The following questions were asked to be answered, so here we go

 

//Tell us about yourself and your blog.

My husband, Tyler, and I moved to El Paso (Fort Bliss) in June of 2012. I was a full time student at the time, trying to figure out this wife thing and finding my place in the world. I honestly don’t know how I got started reading blogs, but I think it was through finding healthy recipes to make for us online, haha.¬†After a while, I realized that I don’t need a place in the world- I needed an outlet. After much encouragement from Tyler, I started¬†Living in Bliss. At first it was to just document our time living in¬†El Paso together… but then¬†we got pregnant and endured a missed miscarriage at 14 weeks and I knew that¬†this would be a great way to help me recover mentally and hopefully reach out to other women who are feeling alone and helpless. Now, I basically talk about our fertility issues and trying to conceive again, military life and deployment, crafts and DIY projects, and whatever the hell else I feel like :)

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June 2012. We spent a few nights on a blow up mattress while we waited for our furniture to be delivered :)

 

//What branch of military are you affiliated with?

My husband is a First Lieutenant in the Army. We’ve been together over five years, but married just under three. After attending Officer Candidate School (OCS) at Fort Benning, TJ went on to BOLC at Fort Sill, Oklahoma, and he proposed in Oklahoma City in April 2012. We married in El Paso that June- no messing around ;) Long story short- Tyler enlisted in 2001, the year he graduated high school (he was actually in boot camp when 9/11 occurred). He signed up for six years, went through two tours in Iraq, lived in Italy and at Fort Campbell, and got out as a Staff Sergeant in 2007. He moved back to our hometown and we met in Februaury of 2010 (though we’re from the same town, we didn’t know each other despite having some “acquaintances” in common. T went to a different high school and is three years older than me…cradle robber!). Shortly before graduating college, he decided to go back in the army as an officer.

//What is one thing you enjoy about the military lifestyle?

This may sound odd, but I actually like the fact that we have moved away from our hometown and established a life for ourselves. Of course I miss our family and friends and it saddens me not seeing them often, but we’re always just a plane ride or phone call away. Although this is our first duty station together, I’m excited to move every few years and experience different places- not to mention all the traveling and visiting awesome places that we otherwise wouldn’t have experienced. My husband already has almost 10 years of service under his belt, so we won’t be living this life forever. I’m eager to see where we settle after he retires!

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Military Ball. December 2013. Found my dress for 10 bucks at Plato’s closet and did my own make up, nails, and hair :)

 

//What advice would you give other spouses who are new?

I have a few words of advice. First of all, do not listen to the generalizations of enlisted vs. officer wives. There are amazing spouses and those that are assholes on both sides of the fence. Also, not every duty station is gonna be a picnic. I never in a million years thought I’d be living in El Paso, and I heard lots of bad things about it. Yes, I miss the seasons, greenery, beaches, and knowing what everyone is saying out in public (my Espanola is not perfecto, haha), but it’s not forever. Go in with an open mind wherever you go and find the good in the area. I’ll admit that I never got involved with the FRG, but I know that’s helped a lot of spouses. There are other ways to get involved though and there are services on post that help with job searching (ACS). I feel as though many spouses use frequent moves (or in my current situation, because El Paso is primarily a Spanish speaking community) as a crutch to not be able to further their education or land a job. Annoying. ;) Keep a positive mind set and don’t bitch at your husband about where you’re stationed. Go on day trips and invest time into hobbies you enjoy.

 

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One of our many day trips. This was at White Sands in New Mexico :)

 

Also, deployment isn’t a matter of if, it’s a matter of when. Tyler’s last deployment was sprung upon us- he literally left within two weeks of being notified. That rocked my world as he was in a non-deployable unit, haha. My biggest piece of advice is to stay busy. We obviously don’t have children and if we did, it would have been different. Seriously- get a job, volunteer, learn something new- do whatever you can to stay busy as it’ll make time go by faster.

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Lounging around watching movies in late 2012.

 

 

If anyone has any questions, feel free to ask! I hope to connect with some awesome ladies :) If you’re affiliated with the military, what is one thing you enjoy/despise about the lifestyle and what advice would you give fellow spouses or significant others?

Hope everyone has a fabulous weekend! I’ll be back next week to talk about some DIY projects, healthy recipes, and fertility stuff :)

My Big Sexy is HOME… and a Few Life Updates

I’m SO incredibly happy to announce that Tyler is home! Though he spent a few days traveling and stuck in airports (DFW and AA suck…sorry, but I’ve had a few bad experiences myself), he finally landed in El Paso last Saturday afternoon. Words can’t describe what it felt like to see him again….Honestly, it felt surreal, and in a way, it still kinda does. I guess that’s what nearly 10 months apart does to you, haha.

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My heart is home.

I was off Saturday, Sunday, and Monday but it was a whirlwind. We spent our days just being together and doing shit that needed to be done, in addition to some fun things such as activating our new phones (I love you iPhone 6) and buying new bedding (still need to get some accent pillows and make some d√©cor). Papa Murphy’s pizza and wine was his choice of meal upon his return home, so I had that waiting for him :)

We put together this TV stand (this bitch weighed like 70 pounds so I couldn’t do it solo) and he installed a few other things he ordered while he was gone. His army room/our work out room¬†(our 3rd bedroom) looks like a tornado went through it, but I honestly could give a rat. As much as we may butt heads sometimes, it’s amazing to look over and see him next to me or hear him call my name.

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Yes, that is indeed Nintendo 64 :)

On a different note, I started my period the day before Tyler got home (well, on Thursday the 23rd- he was supposed to be home the following day but came home the 25th). It was the first time in 7 months that my cycle was relatively normal (33 day as opposed to 45+). That was pretty awesome timing ;) As much as the timing sucked, it was nice to get things rolling early.

I started Femara (Letrozole) a few days ago… today was actually my last day taking it which is cycle day 9. I’ll write another post comparing my side effects of this medicine to Clomid. Tyler got his blood work done yesterday and will go in for another sperm analysis within the next 2 weeks.

I’m cutting this post short, but for those of you that keep up with my blog- I apologize for such infrequent posts. My life was honestly work, cleaning, working out, Netflix, playing with our dogs, and grocery shopping/meal prepping the past several months. I was just in survival mode without him, haha :) Hopefully now I can add something more and be more motivated to upload my crafts and recipes. If you don’t already, you should follow me on Facebook and Instagram!

Cheers to a great weekend and my husband returning home safely from his 3rd deployment :)

April 2015 Update

So this morning I had a follow up appointment with our doctor. All of my labs came back normal (except my progesterone which is always very low). That’s awesome in a way, but sometimes I feel like if we knew what the deal was, then perhaps there would be some type of actual treatment for it. Anyways, my cycle day 21 fell over the weekend, so I got another blood draw to check my progesterone levels after my appointment.

My doctor set up Plan A for us which goes as follows:

  • On cycle day 35 (Saturday, April 25) I can either take the Provera she prescribed me to induce a period OR wait for it to come on it’s own. Over the past several months, my cycles have been anywhere from 40-57 days long… Tyler is wanting me to take the med (as am I)…we wanna get the show on the road when he returns. However, I took this medication last year and nothing happened- NO menstrual cycle. I finally had to be put on birth control for a month to induce a period :(¬† So we shall see.

 

  • After a new cycle occurs, I was told to call my doctor ASAP to notify her. I’ll then have to go get an HCG (pregnancy) blood test done on post to ensure I’m not pregnant (dumb because my husband has been gone for 9 months, but procedures over rule). She should receive those results within a day or two and then send in my prescription for Femara (letrozole) to take on cycle days 5-9

 

  • I will have to go through this each cycle (calling, HCG blood test, then picking up my prescription) which is different than Clomid. I didn’t have to go through the blood work to get my prescription with Clomid, so although it’s a bit more of a hassle (especially with working full-time and the labs/pharmacy being slow as fuck sometimes), we are content with trying a different medication with less side effects.

 

  • We will repeat this plan for 2-3 cycles. If nothing happens, we will move foward.

 

Plan B will either be trying Clomid for 2-3 cycles OR being referred to a specialist. There is only ONE RE is El Paso, and the wait time is a few months. However, there are one or two OBGYN’s that specialize in infertility, so we would probably go that route due to our time restraint of PCSing early next year. Injections and/or IUI would be Plan B if we choose not to do Clomid again.

So that’s it- short and sweet. Honestly, all I want is to see my husband again. It’s the little things in life that he does mean the most to me, such as kissing me goodbye every single morning before he goes to PT; demanding a kiss when one of us comes home from work; holding my hand while we’re driving, at the movies, or just out and about; playing with our dogs as if they were children…I can’t wait to see him watching his boring ass TV shows (I’m sorry, but I cannot get into Game of Thrones for the life of me) while I cuddle up next to him reading a book or simply drifting off to sleep…

Anyways, we shall see what happens. I’ve been trying to focus on the things I have, rather than the things I don’t have. And it’s made life a tad bit sweeter ;)

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Cubs Spring Training in Arizona last March. I obviously don’t have recent pics of us, and this is fitting for the time of year. Go Cubbies!

 

Military Stereotypes

Military Stereotypes. Yep,¬† I’m going there. I’m going to reference a link below, so click on it before you read my thoughts:

Click HERE.

These are just my random thoughts….

  • All military spouses are unemployed- No, they’re not. I’ve met a handful of spouses, both enlisted and officer’s wives, that are stay at home wives/mothers or are working. However, I’ve noticed that on both sides of the spectrum, those with one kid or several do not work. Some of them are involved in the FRG or other volunteer work though. I could honestly give a rat what anyone else does as long as they don’t get in our way. I’ve read on numerous sites/Facebook pages that it’s impossible to find a job here in El Paso because it’s such a predominant Spanish speaking community. I DO agree that it’s difficult, but not unattainable. My Spanish has gotten better since being employed, and while I don’t have the exact words to speak back to people sometimes, it’s kinda cool to know what they’re saying in a different language. I joke that I’ll be fucked if we move to Germany next and I won’t know a thing ;)
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When I was a stay at home wife, full time student :) Taking this cutie to the dog park!

 

  • All military spouses are pregnant- Yep, I agree. Just kidding. I have no idea, but I DO see many young women at the hospital/clinic when I go for my appointments. I heard the super preggo girl in front of me the other day say she was born in 1998 and about crapped my pants. I’m kind of conflicted with this generalization. My husband was married before (when he was enlisted), but they choose not to have kids right away (thank God). I will say that we are out of the ordinary for our age (I’m 29 and he’s 32) and not having any children. Most of the activities on post are children oriented. Bottom line- women get pregnant all the time in general. Men: wear a rubber if you’re not married. Don’t believe that your girl is on birth control or taking it right.

 

  • They have a hill of kids at home-¬† I’ve seen families with 3-5 kids and some with none at all (VERY rare). Once again, don’t most families have children? Is it a proven fact that military families conceive more? I wouldn’t doubt it based on the amount of time it takes me to book a god damn doctor’s appointment for something simple, haha.

 

  • They wear their service member’s rank- I’ve never really seen this. I have seen it against me though. After it was known that my husband is an officer, it was thrown in my face that “he makes more so we can afford things” and whatnot. UMM, my husband earned what he has because he got a college degree. Seeing that he was enlisted before, he knew how to live on the salary of each rank as well. I’m proud of my husband. Like somtimes, it makes me want to cry, proud. But I’m just his lady…I’ll follow him wherever he goes, but his rank is HIS doing. I am going to make the best out of MY career wherever we go :)

 

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Cold as balls in Georgia, but my pinning my babe!

  • ¬†All military spouses are uneducated- I’m not going to lie. I tend to see on social media that there are many enlisted soliders’ wives not only without college degrees, but with no high school diploma! Unless you’re a rock, graduate from high school. If you don’t want a Bachelor’s degree, at least get an associates or some other type of schooling. Look into MYCAA. Do NOT rely on your husband and his job/income to supplement your lifestyle and bearing children. I’m more of a “what if” happens kind of person…I know if the big D ever happened to us, I’d at least have my degree and experience in my favor. I also see many officer wives that have an education and not working. So yeah. It’s all situational and what works best for your family :)

 

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Tyler MADE me walk…then took me out for brunch ;)

 

  • All military spouses are wealthy- Who the eff said this? LMAO.

 

  • All military spouses are lonely- ¬†Yes, field exercises and deployments are lonely. Some people deal with their loneliness by going out all the time, or unfortunately, cheating. Luckily, I’ve always been a more introverted person. Don’t get me wrong- I love being with my family and close friends, but I can handle being alone. I can organize the shit out of things, read, clean, work out, play with my dogs, make crafts, and cook/meal prep. Work takes up most of my time, but when I’m alone I try to push aside the loneliness by distracting myself with old reruns of TV shows on Netflix or music playing in the background.
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My boys have been a huge blessing during TJ’s deployment. They look out for their mommy!

 

  • ¬†All military spouses are bossy- ¬† Uhhh? Never heard this before. NO.

 

  • All military spouses are high maintenance-¬† I’ve only met a few this way. I could give two shits about designer brands (on certain things). If you’re that high maintenance, you must come from money.

 

Alright, so that’s it. What do you think about the military spouse stigma?

Focusing on What I Have, Rather Than What I’m Without.

So we are in the last stretch of this deployment…Things have slowed down a little bit at work, I made my last quick trip back home to Indiana in January, and now things are just kinda whatever.

Throughout the past week or so, I’ve seen three Facebook pregnancy announcements. Before I go any further, I want it to be known that I’m truly happy – for real. But part of me still gets emotional. I get pissed that we are losing out on 9 months of our lives not only trying to make a baby, but making memories together in the meantime. Then I get ashamed that I’m mad because I’m scared and worried for my husband and his safety.

I cannot control any of this. I CAN control what is in my life now, and I want to write about what I’m grateful for in the present moment.

  • ¬†Family- Tyler and I both have awesome families. My familial situation transpired into a much happier place, and I honestly couldn’t have married into a better family. My brother and sister are my best friends (as is Megan P), and while I don’t talk to my parents all the time, our relationships are better than ever.
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Bad photo, but all of us kids with our parents together…and TJ ;)

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Me with Tyler’s parent’s, nieces, and grandma…and their dogs, Molly and Mike! My sister and brother-in-law were out of town that weekend I flew home :(

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Old picture, but one of my favorites. My MIL with my SIL, BIL, and their two girls!

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My uncle and aunt. I can’t talk about them without tearing up…they gave me a true home, support, and unconditional love. I was ashamed and bitter about my immediate family situation for a long time, but I realized had that not occurred, I may not have been blessed with getting to know these two amazing people as I did.

  • ¬†My Best Friend- I don’t talk about my social life on my blog much…but I want it to be known today how absolutely thankful I am for her friendship. I met Megan in 6th grade, and while we’ve had our fair share of turbulence, she is the one thing that has remained constant in my life over the 18 years. Together we’ve endured obnoxious arguments, fun vacations, personal challenges, life lessons, and just everyday bullshit. Megan…I’ve told you before, but you’ve picked me up when I’ve been down, and never judged me. We may have sucked at being roommates, but our friendship is one thing that I have never doubted. You’ve been there for me during my darkest hours and brightest days. I hope that I have reciprocated this friendship. I love you and your family…and thank you for being a part of my life.
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7th grade!

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My best girl a few days before we moved to Texas. June 2012.

On a different note, I’ve also had to end ties with a friendship or two. Relationships are a two-way street, and if efforts are reciprocated, then really…what’s the point? In addition, people simply grow apart. Instead of dwelling on on the relationship, it’s sometimes better just to face reality and accept that things have changed. And that’s okay :)

  • Our Dogs- Stiffler has been Tyler’s light and joy since the day he got him (before my time). He’s gone through a handful of mommy’s, but it makes me feel good knowing that he will finally come to me when we are out at the dog park. A few years ago, he basically would look at me say say “F you” and run away :-( As far as Wrigley goes… Tyler asked me what kind of dog I wanted a few years ago. I know we could’ve gone to the pound, but we didn’t. I knew what I wanted. Long story short:

My mom and her ex would go through wild breakups, and in the midst of one, she said we could finally have a dog. I liked my ex’s dogs, which were Weimaraner’s, but wanted something smaller. It was between a vizsla or a German short-haired pointer. We found a breeder in Michigan that had vizsla’s up for adoption, so that’s what we went with. We all drove 4 hours to pick out/up our pup…Chris and Kath were playing with the puppies, and while I stood in a corner and one little guy ran up to me and just sat there, starring at me. I scooped him up and he was the cutest, most loving, and calm puppy ever. I promptly went over to the kids and my mom and said he was the one. And his name was Charlie.

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I can’t go through old photos, so here is one I found on Facebook of CharChar.

Much more goes into this, but I couldn’t have Charlie, so my ex took care of him after we broke up. I’d still go to see him from time to time or we would meet at the dog park, but it wasn’t the same- and it broke my heart. I was working and going to school, trying to get my life on track. I vowed NEVER to get a pet again until I was financially secure. Then enters Tyler. It may sound effed up, but I wanted another vizsla. I loved Charlie (he was unfortunately aggressive towards some women and children, but NEVER towards me), and TJ and I even tried to figure out how we could go get him (unfortunately, wasn’t possible). I found a breeder outside of San Antonio, and TJ didn’t hesitate. We drove there and back to verify and pick out our pup, then there and back again after he was ready to come home. Although we knew we wanted a male, I couldn’t decide which puppy, so I made Tyler. And he chose the fattest….Wrigley was seriously pawing and making noises at his brothers and sisters in the fenced in area, haha.

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Cutest little disaster ever!

This little guy is the light of my life. He follows me everywhere- even into the bathroom. I’ve taught him to sit, lay, and shake….woo! He sleeps with me at night- HAS to be laying on me somehow- his head, legs..anything! On a side note, I truly do love Stiffler, and I’m happy that Wrigley can help keep him young. Stiff is well-mannered, isn’t a lunatic, and comes when I call him. We’ve come a long way ;)

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A few weeks after we brought Wrigley home. One of my favorite photos.

  • ¬†My Job- Keeps my busy and I work with some awesome people. I’m not a field I’m educated in (in certain aspects), so it can be challenging, but I’ve learned a lot thus far. I’ve also made peace with not beating myself up over where I’m at in my life career-wise. But you know what? I have an amazing husband of over two and a half years who would do just about anything for me and supports me. We have some future endeavors in mind that I’m excited about, so I know this chapter in my life isn’t forever. It’s merely just a stepping stone ;)

I can’t freaking wait until Tyler comes home. I’m excited and scared and nervous all at the same time…Until then, I’m going to get our house in order. I’ve already filled two huge garbage bags of stuff we don’t need/want anymore (we meaning I, haha), and started deep cleaning. Cleaning blinds is a bitch BTW.

* What are you thankful for?

* Have you ever had to pull the plug on long-time friendships?